the best thing and the worst thing.

the best? okay, am i becoming blog-obsessed? perhaps, just perhaps i am. i have found my thoughts often wondering during the day to what i should post on my blog. i found myself today actually brain-blogging. i was literally forming sentences for what i would want to put in my blog. it's all random and in-sequential and also totally distracting. i think one of these days i might get caught brain-blogging when i fail to listen in on a conversation or end up running into a sign on the street. but, with that being said i think that my new found blogsession has helped me look at my life in a different perspective. it's helped me to feel excited about things that normally would seem so ordinary as something that is extraordinary because i get to share it here with you, my 3 followers. haha. i mean it honestly doesn't matter how many people are following because i've found great pleasure just by writing here. and maybe somebody will read it and comment and that will make me happy. but, i will also be content to just write out into the unknow blogosphere. so...here i am. blogsessed.


okay...after the best comes the worst. i know i know. but, i'll keep it short. the piggy flu has invaded my classroom. ahhh! just what i need right before parent/teacher conferences. apparently there's been another large outbreak of swine flu in hong kong and it's snuck it's ugly way in and attacked my classroom and students. i was missing 1/4 of my students today who are out sick with flu like symptoms and one of my boys is confirmed with H1N1. yikesers. so, now my class is basically being quarantined. my vice principal gave us our own set of masks to wear when we leave the classroom (apparently it's okay if we don't wear them around each other, but we can't spread it to the other classrooms? odd.) and loads of hand-gel. i can already tell that this will just be one of those weeks. bring it...

i'm off to bed to get my rest so i can face the morning ready to fight this nasty piggy.

wishing you all the best things today. : )

desperately seeking....something.

i'm sitting at home on sunday night, well...i should be sleeping, but i'm feeling a bit restless. and i have a million things running around on the little track in my head. so, i figure i'll blog.

i've just spent all weekend at work. allll weekend. i should invest in a cot. i've taken down and put up three bulletin boards, finished report cards and comments for 21 little third graders, written lesson plans galore, and inhaled probably more coffee than humanly possible. (i also rearranged my bedroom furniture last night and was up until 3 am. and by rearrange i mean that i moved my bed from one wall to the other wall. that's really all you can do in hong kong. limited space.)




now, i love my job. well...let me rephrase. i love my students. and i love education and learning. and getting to invest in young peoples lives. all the politics of school and teaching, i don't love that part so much. but, i don't do it for those reasons...i do it for my kids. i go in on a weekend and try to create fun and creative bulletin boards for them. my reward is that they get to enjoy and benefit from an environment that i can provide for them. today after work i just felt so exhausted. i love doing my job and helping my students, but this weekend i realized that i often neglect myself in the process. i neglect friends in the process. i feel like i don't have a life because of my job. and perhaps that's because for me it's more than just a job. but, i really think that i need to find a new hobby or...something.

last night i watched the movie "julie and julia" after my furniture rearranging. it really inspired me and perhaps it's what has gotten me on this tangent of thinking. but, julie invested herself in a project. she had a goal. she set a time for when she would meet her goal. and she struggled and toiled through the entire process, but she was able to do it. i so admire that. it desperately makes me wish that i had some sort of ambition like her. i've been thinking all day about this. it's pathetic. but i've been thinking "what could i do?" and "what do i want to do?" i've always been the person that starts a million little projects...knitting, scrapbooking, photography, cooking, writing, painting, yoga and i'm sure that this list could go on. for year i've always started something, but the second it started getting too difficult or i started feeling like i just wasn't really good at it or i got bored of it, it would just be done. tonight i went and bought the book that julie powell wrote that inspired the movie. i thought that perhaps if i read her memoirs about her own ambition that perhaps it will spark one of my own.

here's hoping that is will spark...something.

goodnight friends.

midnight poetry.

it's midnight and my mind is soaking in beautiful poetry. i've been a bit stressed out with work this week. i went into work today (saturday) for pretty much the whole day. got back home after 9. i watched "julie & julia". and now i find myself decompressing with poetry. e.e cummings, poetry. i never realized how relaxing and therapeutic poetry is to me. anytime i read mr. cummings my mind wanders to far away places where i feel not like myself. i'm reminded of beauty and his words capture me and i float away. so, goodnight world...i'm going to float away on the wings of a poem.

i thank you God for most this amazing

by E. E. Cummings

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening inimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)